Very Anxious
I start my Xeloda tomorrow and also my herceptin every three weeks and aredia I continue but every six weeks. Im very nervous and anxious. I wasn't this bad even when I was first dx with cancer. I have been on the verge of tears all day, wondering will this help, will it stop my liver progression, will I be around for my children to grow up. My son today, told me when he get a grown up and becomes a palentologist he will build a house next to his in Austrailia so I could babysit his kids. This is is lifelong dream to live in Austrailia and dig for dinosaur bones. I was almost crushed. I hate this disease. Sure I go into denial and I try to live my life normal for my children, but I guess starting treatment brings it to the forefront and makes you face the future, whatever it may be. I think Im in need of encouragement and hope badly. Any advice or suggestions?
Dawn
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Dawn
Mar 2006Stage IIIA, Her2/Neu 3+++, Er & Pr positive, 8 of 18 pos 03/14/06: Mastectomy 04/19/06 started Chemo adriamycin, chlophosphamide, taxotere 25 rads
Nov 1, 06: 3 years Tamoxifen, Herceptin (1yr)
Jan 2009 Femara mets to bone aromasin and aredia
June2009: Full Histerectomy
2/22/2010 6 spots in liver 2 mm-10 mm: switched to xeloda and Herceptin will continue with Aredia J
Scan February 2011 new onc, switch to abraxane
April 2011 NED clear organs, 3 spots on bone scar tissue.
Scans August 2mm spot on liver and lungs. now on to tykerb/xeloda
Dec 2011 scans nothing on lungs, liver down to 1 2 mm spot. j
une 2012 another spot on liver on to cisplatin/gemzar.
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