The results are in...........................

[Mary Jo]

Well my results are in. They are good BUT not as good as I would have liked. You see, I would have liked "all is perfect" but unfortunately, that is not what I heard. However, I did not hear "you have cancer" so I suppose that is close enough to perfect.

I did hear that that I had 1 pre-malignant lesion - that was the bleeder. Thankfully, it was removed before it turned into a malignancy. I will go in for a another colonoscopy in 3 - 6 months so my doctor can make sure there is no residual polyp tissue left behind.

Two of the polyps were hyperplastic and showed areas of decreased blood flow. I know I don't have this sentence worded correctly and honestly isn't quite sure how to word it. My doctor said she wasn't "real happy with the report" (I think she meant in how it was written or worded) and said that she saw no evidence of decreased blood flow. She said my colon looked good and people with a disease that has decreased blood flow (I think she said disease) have very bad looking colons.

I have a list of questions already started for my face to face visit with her on Monday, the 29th and will definitely feel more "in the know" at that point. The main thing THAT I DO KNOW is that I did not have any cancer. So for that I am thankful. I am also thankful I was pro-active and went in went I felt I should and had this colonoscopy done now and not in 2 years when I am 50.

So it looks like colonoscopy's will be in my near future and then in my yearly future for a while but I guess that'a ok too. Better to know - stay on top of it and catch whatever needs to be caught before it turns into TROUBLE.

I will admit though, I was a little ticked off today. I felt like I was just one big genetic mess AND you know what, I probably am. I also kind of felt like why do I do the things I do? Why do I exercise religiously? Why do I try to eat right? Why do I take the vitamins I do? Why do I care? Honestly, it really seems like what will be will be and it doesn't really matter what I do. I know that sounds like I have a major pity party going on AND I really don't. I just kind of felt that way for a bit but came to my senses and realized that although my body isn't perfect I AM HEALTHY - I AM CANCER FREE - AND I TAKE CARE OF THE SELF I HAVE RIGHT NOW. It can only benefit me - my heart - blood pressure - cholesterol - and overall well being. What will be will be............that is true...................God knows our tomorrow's.................that is true...............but for the now I need to be healthy, which in turn makes me happy, vibrant, energetic and better able to take care of me.

Thanks everyone for you concern and prayers. I appreciate the quick responses, love and support we give to each other when we need it.

Love & God's Peace to all,

Mary Jo