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I am a recovering 'perfectionist' that has fine tuned myself into a person who expects order, not perfection. When Ed had his first Gamma Knife I went for a walk to the gift shop at the Gamma Center. That particular shop has awesome trinkets and my particular make-up. My girls sometimes will give me a facial and such and I always love their quick company. It is a shop that pampers the cancer patient and I love the thoughtfullness within it.
I searched for something small that I could make mine which would serve as a reminder of the day. On a display I found a huge square silk-like scarf with maple leaves on it. I may love my oak leaves but second in line is maple and had it removed from the display. When I got home I knew I had to put it somewhere special. Placing it in its new home I noticed a run throughout it that no one would probally ever see (but me).
I was going to return it since it was of course overpriced. I decided to keep it for many reasons....it represented this monumental day is our journey......it was hidden in the display and I had to have it....most of all because life is not perfect but it is beautiful, you just have to see beyond the runs.
I kept the scarf and took it on vacation and shall enjoy it for an eternity. It was a pleasant reminder for me as I changed the wardrobe from one season to the other and bumped into it. I actually looked beyond the runs and it was liberating.>>Believe51
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