How do you "fight"?

[Catherine]

How much do you fight? When do you fight? I am a one year survivor and am enjoying life so much, that I do not spend much time fighting. I feel good when I concentrate on being with people I enjoy and do things that are meaningful to me. I have not been doing a lot of research or extra special diet things. I am doing the obvious: low fat, lots of fruits and vegetables. For now I am counting on the Herceptin and a higher power to keep me well. Am I lazy that I have not started a diet regiemen? I enjoy that I am no longer on the couch like last summer. I enjoy that my chest scars are healing and that I can walk for an hour at one time. I want to learn more about this disease, but I don't seem to have the desire to research and read much. I relie on all the "smartey pantses" on this wonderful site to share their wisdom. Maybe I will fight harder if I have a recurrence. I feel like I fought hard last year.

In the meantime, do I need to fight? This may sound like a dumb question. But sometimes I feel guilty that I am not on a research mission. Maybe I am just a poor student and I will pay later. Am I bad for not working harder right now? I love enjoying life at age 58 right now and enjoy the sunshine.

That's my rap, any comments? Catherine