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Fear subsides.....
as time goes by. I found the first 6 months that I just had to be "Not Afraid" one day at a time! As I got into the end of my first year, I began to fear recurrances less and less. Not that I didn't know they might come someday, but I just quit fearing them so much. It is a "time heals all things" kinda disease for me. Today (in my 14th month) I don't get afraid much anymore. I know that I'm doing my part, my doctors are doing their part, and I have lots of prayers from those who care about me. Now, it's time to enjoy the moments and not give into the fear. I do give myself time each week to do lots of reading and sometimes when I do that, I get afraid for a short time. But it doesn't last anymore. I have 6 more weeks of radiation. (That is good for me because it is so obvious that I'm (the machine) is doing something) And I have 5 more months of Herceptin. Then, I don't know what they'll give me. But being able to see the end of the basic treatment helps tons for me.
Take it one day at a time and give yourself permission to be afraid and then work thru it.
Lots of good thoughts and prayers to you,
mary anne
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MA in TX.
Grateful for each and every day....
Diag. 12/05 at age 60
Stage II, Grade 3, 4.5 cm primary tumor
ER/PR- Her2 +3 strongly positive
Her2 by FISH 7.7 amplified
vascular invasion
Ki67 20% borderline
Jan - March '06 Taxotere/Adriamycin X 3 to try to shrink tumor - it grew
April '06 Rt Modified Radical Mas, 7 of 9 nodes positive
April - Aug. '06 Herceptin/Taxol/Carboplatin X 8 (dose dense)
Sept - Dec. '06 Navelbine/Herceptin x 8 (dose dense)
Radiation & Herceptin Jan. 22 - March 1, 2007
Finished Herceptin Dec. 10 '08! One extra year.
Port removed August, 2012.
8 1/2 years since diagnosis! 5 1/2 Years NED!
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