Emotional Rollercoaster

[KaiM]

The last week was quite a ride for me. I had my routine 3 month scan on Monday, and then on the way home stopped for some lunch. As I was leaving I heard my name and turned around to see a mom from my daughters preschool who had gone thru chemo about six months after me for triple negative BC. She looked amazing and healthy and it filled me with joy. Then I logged in here on Tuesday to learn of Kristin's passing, the rest of the day was filled with tears and heartache for me. I woke up Wednesday morning and headed out to the doc for my results and infusions. After checking in for my blood draw I turned around to find a seat and heard my name, I looked up only to see a woman I barely recognized. We had been Herceptin sisters almost three years ago and had shared many days in ITA together. She was stage 2 then and I was stage 4, so she finished up her treatment and went on with her life, and here she was in front of me again, just a shadow of her old self now dealing with brain mets and pleural effusion. I broke down in tears with her and shared many hugs that day. I now feel awful for being so emotional. I then saw my doc and got the fantastic news that my scan was still stable and I am still responding to my first course of treatment. I drove home just a wreak, alternating between sobbing and taking deep grateful breaths that I could focus on the holidays and my kids now. Sorry for all the rambling, but I haven't been this emotionally drained in a very long time and new you all would get it. Wishing us all some peace , comfort and daily joys this holiday season....