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Join Date: Aug 2011
Location: Philly Suburbs
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NEDenise is NED!!
My Friends,
I saw my docs yesterday and...
Praise the Lord,
Who blesses me,
My path report says N-E-D!
If a picture is worth a 1000 words...this picture is exactly what I'm feeling!
Oddly, it didn't hit me till I was half way home...then I started to weep. Not joy exactly...but gratitude, and relief. Joy came later when we told the kids. I will never, ever forget the looks on my boys' faces when I told them...or the spontaneous group hug that followed. God has been so good to me!
I keep thinking of the little song my Dad taught me when I was a kid:
I don't care if it rains or freezes,
I am safe in the arms of Jesus.
I am Jesus' little lamb.
He's with me wherever I am.
And I found this picture that I love...
because Jesus is loving a little black sheep...not a perfect white lamb. The look on His face speaks volumes too. He certainly has been holding me close, giving me strength to fight the cancer beasties!
I have been trying to write this post since last night...because you have all been so instrumental in my staying positive, and keeping the faith. (an homage to Bonnie) But...every time I started typing, the tears started flowing anew. I think it's because I know you'll all understand how emotional this is...better than anyone else in my world.
I still have 30 rads ahead of me, and I know that I can recur at anytime. I may even join the beautiful and strong stage IV sisterhood one day...but right now, today, I am overcome with gratitude. I know my little NED poem probably sounds silly, and tongue in cheek...but I mean it with my whole heart and soul. Thank you to the God who is so good to me, all the time. (right Nancy!)
And, thanks to you, my wonderful HER2 friends!
With love,
NEDenise 
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1/11-needle biopsy
2/11-Lumpectomy/axillary node dissection - Stage 3c, ER/PR-14/17 nodes
3/11 - Post-op staph infection,cellulitis, lymphedema,seroma,ARRRGH!
4/12/11-A/C x 4, then T/H x 4, H only,Q3 weeks
8/26/11 finished Taxol!!!
10/7/11 mastectomy/DIEP recon
11/11 radiation x28
1/12/12 1st CANCER-VERSARY!
1/12 Low EF/Herceptin "Holiday" :(
2/12 EF up - Back on Herceptin, heart meds
4/2/1212 surgery to repair separated incision from DIEP recon
6/8/12 Return to work :)
6/17/12 Fall, shatter wrist,surgery to repair/insert plate :(
7/10/12 last Herceptin
7/23/12 Brain Mets %$&#! 3cm and 1cm
8/10/12 Gamma knife surgery, LOTS of steroids;start H/Tykerb
8/23/12 Back to work
12/20/12 Injure back-3 weeks in wheel chair
1/12/13 2nd CANCER-VERSARY!
1/14/13 herniate disk in back - surgery to repair
1/27/13 Radiation necrosis - edema in brain - back on steroids - but not back to work - off balance, poor cordination in right arm
5/3/13 Start Avastin to shrink necrosis
5/10/13 begin weaning steroids
6/18/13 Brain MRI - Avastin seems to be working!
6/20/13 quarterly CT - chest, abdomen, pelvis - All Clear!
7/5/13 finally off steroids!!
7/7/13 joined the ranks of the CHEMO NINJAS I am now Tekuto Ki Ariku cancer assassin!
7/13/13 Symptoms return - back on steroids
7/26/13 Back on Avastin - try again!
8/26/13 Not ready to return to classroom yet :( But I CAN walk without holding onto things! :)
9/9/13 Brain MRI - fingers crossed
“ Life is a grindstone, and whether it grinds you down or polishes you up is for you, and you alone, to decide. ” – Cavett Robert
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