Speaking from my heart

[Faith in Him]

I am speaking from my heart and since I have a scan on Friday, I am probably more dramatic than usual. But I am just having an issue with the whole, "they lost their battle to cancer" thing.

I know that I may have stray cancer cells and that I may never rid my body of them altogether. But I don't feel like I am losing the battle. Every day feels like a win to me. Cancer hasn't cancelled out the 1,575 days I have lived since I was told. It hasn't cancelled out all the major milestones I have witnessed in my life and those I love since dx.

Even if the worse happens, I will still live on in the memories of those who love me. So at the end of day, would I really lose to cancer. How can all those days of living and the memories total up to a lost?

I think of the people I've known who have gone on to Heaven after living with cancer. I don't feel like they lost their battle. In fact, I have the opposite feeling.

I once read a post that said something like, if you are still around the day after you hear the words, "you have cancer", you have won the battle. There is a lot of truth in that.