Hi All:
I am sure this has been posted many times before, but posting now in hopes that others will have some insight.
As you can see by my sig I have been in active treatment since last August. I am looking forward to my last rad this Wednesday. When I was diagnosed I had a good job, three beautiful toddlers and my life was set. Since diagnosis I have lost my job (see previous postings for details on the evil boss from hell
), my body is wrecked from treatment, and my disposition is less than cheery.
I am struggling with the issue of transitioning from active treatment to rebuilding my life. One thing that keeps popping up is my Oncologist's comment that even though my nodes were clear, in his experience the cancer had probably spread. I plan to request a PET scan soon just for my own peice of mind, and I will be on Herceptin until September then Tamoxifen.
Quite simply, I am absolutely terrifed of starting over and not sure how to put all this in its proper place...in the past! I still have some pretty dibilitating side effects from chemo and my dr said it will be a while before I return to work.
I would love to hear from all of you that have moved on and started over...I thought chemo was the hardest part...but I am finding that the mental part is proving to be just as hard...
Ginny
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