Possible Liver Mets?

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I'm two years out from my HER2+ breast cancer dx. Mastectomy, carbo/taxol/ herceptin a year, finished December '10. At that time, I started having left side flank pain. My doc sent me for an abdominal CT, which came out fine. Pain never left. A month ago I started bloating up and gained two pants sizes, and considering that I was a size 0, that is a significant percentage. My doc admitted his alarm and suspected ovarian cancer. Sent me for another CT.

I got a call yesterday from his office that he wants to see me. I asked if it was ovary, but his secretary says they found a spot on my liver.

I told her I was freaking out a little, and she said, "don't freak out." You know how you hang on every word at times like this? I keep calming myself down with it, thinking she knows something I don't. Yet, she probably was just saying what I would say to somebody - it'll be okay, even if you have mets.

I go in tomorrow at 10:45.

I know that even cancer patients have benign spots on their liver and I know about hemangiomas and cysts.

But, would a doctor call me in to talk about a spot if it wasn't mets? Would my CT be clean five months ago and now show up with a spot if it was benign?

I suppose he could be calling me in to tell me he wants to do more tests but he could have done that over the phone. But, maybe he thinks said tests require explaining.

I guess I want to know what other patients have experienced with their mets diagnosis. My anxiety level is pretty low most of the time but it's spiking right this second. As I said in my recent KevinMD article, we have to live with this awful uncertainty. It's a new lifestyle almost, these ups and downs.

My symptoms are bloating, feeling full quickly, not much appetite (although I do eat) and oddly, weight gain, all in my belly. I have pain on a 4-5 level on my LEFT side, and have for months.

If you've been through anything like this, I'd appreciate your insight.