I'm really scared, can't stop crying - Page 2

Alaina · 02-15-2008, 08:35 AM

Hello there,

I can only imagine how you are feeling right now. You said you are alone, does that mean that you dont have a husband, children or parents living with you? I know sometimes with friends they are not able to understand the pain etc.

Well, here are my thoughts. You are not alone ever because you have God, all His angels and saints. He created you specifically and loves you more than any person ever could or will.

When I was diagnosed at the age of 35 with stage IV, IBC, I was devastated. My children were 1, 3 and 3. I just could not believe I was going to die and not get to raise my babies. A St. Theresa prayer was sent to me and I said it for all cancer patients. A few days later I got the most beautiful roses. I then looked up St. Theresa because I had rememebered that she will send you a rose if she can help you with your prayers etc. Well, I read about her and how her life was changed forever at the age of 4 when her mother died of breast cancer. For me, it was a sign.

Here is what I would ask you to do. You have nothing at all to lose. Go to a place where you can be alone and peaceful. Get down on your knees and ask God to come into your heart. Tell Him you need him and that you dont know where to start and ask Him to show you. You are His child and your requests WILL NOT fall on deaf ears. Ask Him for peace and guidance. That is all you have to do, take the first step.

I wish you well in this journey. Remember, new meds are being tested as we write and no one knows when the cure will be found. Have hope!!! Have faith!!! Love, your sister in this battle, alaina

harrie · 02-15-2008, 11:58 PM

Hello HavahJ,
You are NOT alone and I am sure everyone of us has had our time on that roller coaster ride.
I wish you a HUGE exhaled sigh to get rid of some of that stress.....remember to breathe HavahJ.....at this moment that is my one advice that I happen to think of.....breathe, think about your breathe, and breathe out some of those dark thoughts. That is a good beginning....
You are not alone.....
harrie (maryanne)

harrie · 02-16-2008, 03:49 PM

HavahJ,....hi, it's me again!
HavahJ, one thing I have learned from my experience with br cancer is to try my best to not worry and think ahead too much. It is all to easy to do, for me especially at night when I am in bed. I have come to the personal conclusion that many times our worries concerning the future, whether it be about our health or other family or personal matters are not worth the acute concern. We need to keep the "what ifs" under control. Worrying about those situations that may or may not happen in the future can create unnecessary stress and it can mask the joy and peace of what is happening at the moment. There are many everyday simple joys that go unnoticed, and what a shame they are not gratified when we have them here and now.
It is very important to be able to balance the "being and doing" here in life. If you can master that, if you can discipline yourself to weed out and let go of those things that are not to be dealt with at this time, I think you will find more comfort, peace and joy.....and again...remember to breathe....
Best regards,
Maryanne (harrie)