just need encouragement

[kvogler]

Honey, don't ever feel like you're a lousy Christian. I just had this conversation with a friend of mine who lost a sister-in-law to cancer (not breast--some rare type). My friend is having survivor's guilt and admitted though she's a Christian, she fears dying even though she knows she's not supposed to. You're not alone in how you feel. As long as you profess belief in the Lord, you're a good Christian. God knows we're imperfect beings. So please don't beat yourself up over that. Prayers are being said for you.