WHAT MORE AM I SUPPOSED TO TAKE

Hi all, well I am not a Merry Ray of Sunshine today, just got back from my doc, had message to see her result from biopsy was back, I was to see her this Friday. I actually thought after what I went through this time round with chemo and rads that it was gone, or else excuse my crude term, belted the shit out of it, well not so, it made no difference at all except I now have cremated skin on my right breast and skin, and hey who would want to operate on that anyway, well result poorly differentiated adenocarcinoma, excuse me that was in capitals in the report, ADENOCARCINOMA consistent with breast primary site of tumour, and this time HER1+ - 2+ heck I was always HER 3+ before, what have I done wrong, do I throw out all of my theories and vitamin supplements or just get back up and torture my body some more, sorry girls and guys but I have just lost it today, perhaps tomorrow I will get back up and keep on going on with treatment for the family, I can't even die in peace they are lost without me, I know they keep saying worry about yourself, and then the next question, can I borrow the car, where did you put the sugar, none of them know what a power or phone bill look like let alone arrange car insurance, sorry again just feeling sorry for my self, the other thing I hate the look of hearses so I guess I will just have to fight on for another day, another day closer to getting a cure.

Love & Hugs Lyn, good thing my tears haven't fused out the keyboard.