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Re: Scared
Jessica,
It has been a year since I had my double mastectomy. I was stage 3c. Yep, it does get scary at times. However, I've come to terms with the disease and truly believe that the more stressed out that I get the more vulnerable my body becomes to cancer. Additionally, if my life does get shortened by this disease I want to make the best of each day that I have. I'm convinced that worrying only makes matters worse and certainly doesn't help ward off cancer in any way.
When my mind goes to these dark places, I remind myself to focus on positive things. I visualize my positive thoughts attacking cancer cells. I think of things that I am grateful for. These can be real simple things but they are meaningful things to me (enjoying a cup of coffee, sitting in the sunshine, playing with my kitties, reflecting on meaningful relationships with family and friends).
When I cant sleep, I read books that are uplifting and make me happy. It helps me.
Best of luck to you Jessica. I'm hoping you find a trick that works for you.
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8/2013 Diagnosed IDC Left Breast ER-/PR-/HER2+ Stage 3C, DCIS ER+/PR+/HER2- Right Breast (54 yr)
8/2013 PET/CT scan shows mass in uterues and suprclavicular nodes
8/20/13 Begin 6 rounds TCH chemo, Perjeta added for rounds 4-6
9/2013 After 1st round of chemo, mass in neck and breast no longer able to feel
11/2013 Hysterectomy, mass from PET/CT scan not cancer (adenomylosis)
12/2013 Finished chemo
1/2014 Double mastectomy with chest expanders
1/2014 Pathology report from surgery and SNB show complete pathological response!
3/2014 Finish IMRT radiation
8/2014 Fat transfer to radiated breast
8/2014 Completed 1 yr of Herceptin
10/2014 exchange surgery expanders removed implants placed
6/2015 3D nipple and areola tattoos
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