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Re: The power of your thoughts
Yes, Denny. I'm relieved! And waiting for what tomorrow will bring. 2nd opinion on CTs from other radiologist. Conference with onc and surgeon.
1st day back for onc away for personal reasons (not a thing I ever recall him doing). I e'd him. He called my cell. Midst whatever he's going through. Wanted to reach out to me. I was his first patient. In 1995. Paul & I are in love with him. How could we help but not be impressed by this brilliant doc who actually really really cares about his patients?
What will other radiol say? All organs are good and mentioned in report. Surg said doesn't sound like what a carcinoid tumor is in his experience and his seen them. They are rare. Will they want an MRI? Will they want to rescan in a period of time? Will my onc push for a biopsy. Can the biopsy be done w/needle. Surg said he'd check w/radiol...
Meanwhile, I feel rather peaceful. Optimistic. Less frazzled. Thought I'd be making an appt for surg today. Not an alarmist. All I wanted was STABLE STABLE STABLE (chest/abd/pelv). I am spoiled. But I am also humbly and genuinely grateful. Every day!!! I say it out loud several x a day. Every single day!!
Stay tuned.
LUCK TO YOU, Neddy tomorrow. And tomorrow. And tomorrow... Then celebratory dinner... (That's what we do w/each CT results. Not this time. Didn't even eat... Surely didn't want to go out... Needed to process and calm myself.)
Hope you get your margarita, NeD... ;o))
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Andi BB
'95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive...
'98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!)
+ good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either...
Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...
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