Cancer is back...I just knew it.

Sherryg683 · 09-23-2009, 12:41 PM

Chelee, Im so sorry this has happened and you have to go back into this hell called treatment. And yes, your husband was a jerk..as most men can be. When I got my diagnosis, the same night, my husband sat by the TV and cheered and whooped on at a football game. He said he was trying to get his mind off it. Your husband is probably very upset and is trying to distant himself until he collects his thoughts.....or he's just being a selfish jerk. Men react to fear so much differently than women. When we seem someone sick or hurting our nature is to nurture. I think men feel if they ignore the problem it will go away. There have been some great men on this board however, so I can't lump them into one group. Please get yourself a good medical team and demand to your husband that he step up to the plate this time...luv..sherry

Chelee · 09-23-2009, 01:20 PM

My head has been spinning since being told my cancer is back yesterday. Then being rushed off for x-rays...being given appt. dates for ECHO's, infusion dates, dentist visits, labs, port placement, brain MRI and the list goes on as I DON'T have to tell any one of you.

I haven't even had time to really deal with how I feel about any of this. My husband finally said today he will take me any where I have to go...he will use FMLA or whatever it takes. He told me not to worry about it. I was shocked to hear him say that. But I'll see what happens when it all starts up. He was so angry last time I went through this & took it out on me often. It was so hard on me. Like I didn't feel bad enough.

After hearing that and coming here and finding all the replies and support from you all I can't quit crying. But that's what I needed to do. I serisouly DO need you guys right now because I have no one to help me. You would think this would be easier the 2nd time around...but so far that doesn't seem to be the case for me. I've been on the phone all day scheduling all these appts...right now it just seems like too much. One minute I feel like I can do this...then I'm not sure. But I remember the 1st time once I got my first infusion out of the way it got easier it seems. So I'll be ok...but I really will need some help here to get through this. So thanks to all of you for the PM's, prayers, messages of support. I'm over whelmed by it. I'll get my crying out of the way to day and put my boxing gloves back on. There laying around here some where.

Chelee