psychological during this?

[MCS]

I have lost all my faith after this.

My mother is in denial an treats me like I'm good as new, My two daughters treat me like crap, my husband desn't have what it takes to support me emotionally or to tell my daughters off. I also lost my job and looking for a way to get permanent disability

Where do I go? I guess that's why this God gave me this? so I could die and be at peace? I really want to die sometimes. I'm so tired physically and battered emotionally

I never thought I would spend my last year (s) like this so I almost wish I would die soon. I am totally abandoned and lonely.

I know that some of you may have experienced this at some time. What do you advice? I guess I need a pshychologist to give me self elteem or encourgament to live. at minumum to get my medicines because i don't want to do that either. I guess my life in this earth is over

MCS (maria)