What to tell kids?

[RhondaH]

When I was going through chemo and was REALLY sick, my 4 yo would ask me if I was going to die (this also came about because my father died the day before my 3rd chemo so he naturally put together sick and dying) and I found it's hard to explain death to a 4 yo. I think the hardest time for me is when Tony has a meltdown and begins crying and yelling "Mommie, don't leave me" (even if I'm just leaving the room). YES, the process of dying doesn't scare me, but leaving my son (4yo) and mother(73yo) (I'm a single mother and an only child, Gina and I spoke previously about having cancer and being a single mother and the different feelings THIS brings) scares the HELL out of me. I never was DEEPLY religious before cancer, but I feel GOD has blessed me with so much (my life, my son's life, mother, family friends, etc) that I thank him every day and while I know this life is only temporary, I pray to God every night thanking him every day and asking him that he keep me on earth long enough to help build my son's belief and faith in him so that one day we will all be together again.

Rhonda Hoffman