Misbehaving

I have not posted for awhile- I am stage iv her2+++, diagnosed March 2003. I had a 9x10 cm mass in my left breast, with 2 sets of nodes involved & mets to my liver. I did epirubicin & taxatere until July, then herceptin every 3 wks. (my scans were clear in Aug) In Jan I had a ct scan & there is one small lymph node on my left side that seemed to be growing. We decided to wait 3 mos, so I had a ct scan Wed, and saw the doc today. That lymph node still does not want to behave! I am getting a pet scan & mugga next week, and will start gemzar, along with the herceptin on a weekly basis.

Is this the way this is going to go from here on out? Has anyone else ever had this combo? Will I lose the little hair I have finally acquired? (Although its not much, I really don't want to wear the wig all summer! Too hot, and my although my grandkids had a blast pulling it off!) Do you think they could just give me the cure & get this over with??? This was NOT on my list of things to do in my lifetime...I even checked it again to make sure...

Thanx!