Another Mountain to Climb

Sorry I haven't been on the boards lately but have been trying to deal with the pain and tests they have been running. I had a PET scan done Friday a week ago and they found a three inch mass on the para aorta in my stomach. The cancer is also spreading to many areas of my muscles and soft tissues. Went to see the radiologist on Thursday and they are going to do two to three weeks of radiation to see if they can reduce it. They feel like that is what is causing all the pain. Can't figure out why they didn't find it before it got to be three inches since I have been complaining of this pain since December. They have discontinued my Navelbine and my herceptin. Obviously the Navelbine wasn't working. We also have called Hospice and they are coming in once a week. Yesterday they ordered a hospital bed for me since I have been sleeping on the sofa for the last three weeks. (If that's what you call sleeping). I'm awake every two to three hours. I just hate the thought of the hospital bed being put in my living room, but my husband doesn't want it to be put in one the bedrooms because he is afraid I would be so isolated. I truly hate this disease - not only what it is doing too me but to my darling husband.