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Hi all
Oh where to begin, i am currently on the Hera trial receiving Herceptin thrice weekly, two weeks ago i had a breast reconstruction using the becker implant method where they gradually inflate you to your desired size.....well long story short i came home thinking Yeh i now have to molehills again when bam i get a nast staph infection which required 4 days in hospital on swimming pools full of iv's..my veins gave up in my good arm so they resorted to using my feet which hurt like hell!!! i came home after that thinking Yeh its cleared up i still have two molehills, and what happens i get yet another infection, my dr says that i have to go in tommorow and they will assess if it needs removing, (i cannot believe this is happening to me), i thought at last i could get on with life without wearing a horrible falsie (i know some gals like these and no disrespect, but they make me itch and i hate them), so i feel like im at square one again, Pleeeeeeeaaase somebody help me before i go mad, i thought i was dealing ok with a fairly poor prognosis (7/14 nodes er- pr+ two small tumours), but this has made be go doolally, i cant take anymore pain, im snapping at my hubbie and little boy which i know is out of order, but im so angry with life, how much does one person have to take, i lost my dad to kidney cancer in November 03, my nan died of a stroke in March this year and my last grandad who i adored passed in June this year, what is it all about? please help im almost suicidal......i know there are others who are in a much worse position, i see people at the hospital with Heart disease who can hardly breathe and people with all sorts of awful things but i feel so alone.
My love to you all, i do wander about this site often but don't post much as i feel im intruding on all you stage 4 sisters, i hope you don't mind my post today.
Nikki
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