Searching for a meaning???

Hi,
I don't post too often but when i need a helping hand or a kick up the rear this is where i come now, (hope you don't mind), but i know alot of you guys on here are fairly religious and have alot of faith in god, the thing is, and this is gonna sound stupid, i'm desperatley trying to find a faith i can lay my heart to, i was brought up non denomination and im lost if you know what i mean? i would love to have the beliefs and reassurance you guys have, it feels as though something is missing, do you understand?? i hope you do, because i really need to have some kind of belief system, i don't know where to start, i have ample churches and synagouges and temples around me but i can't just walk in, i feel so shy and inferior....this must seem like a strange post but i know i can come here for advise, i know you guys will enlighten me somehow, i know so many people with a belief in god who have overcome thier fears, i just want that kind of comfort you know? please help me see some kind of meaning to all of this, i would be so grateful to hear from others and especially thier beleif systems.
Sorry to be a pain, im in limbo land right now, looking for an outlet, and if anyone knows the meaning of life please let me know.
Love you all Nikki (stage 2 her2+++ 7/14 nodes grade2) x x x x