I\'m embarrassed...I chickened out on the Brain MRI

I was scheduled to take a Brain MRI 2 days before we left on our cruise. I didn't have any symptoms, was just trying to be pro-active.

I chickened out...didn't have the MRI done. I didn't want to worry about it while I was on vacation.

Now I find that I'm apprehensive about getting one done...I've slipped into a denial like "ignorance is bliss" mode. I've been in chemo for the last 7 months for live & bone mets...and IF I have brain mets would be another heavy load to deal with.

I know, I know...I should get this done. Can I just be a chicken for a week or so???!!!