7 years & counting...NED still elusive. Chest nodes back.

[jml]

Hi All~
I was really hoping to celebrate my 7yr Cancerversary (on May 17) w/NED, but as it turns out, he's yet again, elusive
I'm only 5 weeks off of my last cycle of chemo-Gemzar/Herceptin - chest nodes again- medastinal/hilar/subcarinal. With that last cycle, I've now had 105 rounds of chemo. Ugh! And it didn't even work.
I'm really bummed right now, and just need some time to let the news settle. Then back to the drawing board research chemo combos, maybe radiation again (previously I'd had 7 weeks of rads for supraclav nodes).
The good news is my liver is still clean - 3+years now, and my kidneys are okay too.
I just really really really don't want to be bald again.

Any words of wisdom are greatly appreciated.

Keeping the Faith - though it's a little hard today...

Jessica