Terrified now that I'm 'healthy'
That's it. I finished my year of herceptin. I had a mammogram. All is well. I am told I am cancer free.
So why am I so anxious? I find myself on the verge of tears all week.
I will be meeting with my oncologist next month-my quarterly visit--but, they keep telling me, that's it. I am now 'healthy' and to go back to my life. How do you get that through your mind? It's easier to come back for treatments, than to abandom them!
When do I start believing that I am really o.k.?
My family doesn't get me. I was cool these past 15 months through the treatments, surgery, radiation. Now that I made it through everything--with no complications--panic has set in. Anyone else been through this?
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