spoke too soon

[LAURIE]

Okay , well last week I posted that "all is well with me and the baby". Baby is still doing great, but I have suffered a side effect of having chemo and now being pregnant. It's kind of embarrassing, BUTT here it is. Hemorroids !!! I now have it so bad that I went to the ER sat. night. The ER doc told me that I will need surgery to get relief. I was surprised, but they prescribed me Percoset and a prescription strength cream. I will see my BC surgeon tomorrow for these nasties. I have done some reading and they are level 4 hemorroids. There is no shrinking these things or stapling them back in.

In the meantime I have been suffering with the pain. Just taking Tylenol. I have not been able to go to work, and feel so guilty about it. So obviously things are complicated being 32 weeks pregnant. How can I have a surgical procedure done now, but I cannot be in pain until this little boy is cooked and ready.These little nasties never really recovered from the chemo constipation and I am sure this has made it worse.
I understand this is a common side effect of pregnancy, but usually not so bad that it requires surgery.

Pray that we will make the best decision for me and the baby. I would hate to put him at risk, but I cannot wait 8 more weeks with this pain. Looks like my wish of a vaginal birth are out of the question now.

Still trying to stay positive,