Emotional side of breast cancer

[carol7403]

I hope lots of people see this and respond to it-I really need everyones' help and input. I'm finishing up treatment for my second time with BC, and have been thinking a lot about the mental and emotional side of this crazy cancer life. I'm wondering- what kind of life do I make for myself now? After having cancer twice, chemo, two masts etc, how do I fit all that into regular life? What is regular life like anyway? I'm wondering- how do I go back to normal-what am I supposed to feel like after all this fear and distraction and confusion? Sometimes I feel like I have a hold on things and sometimes I do a lot of crying, or just feel kind of numb. Do I just add "former cancer patient" to my life story, or does it mean more than that? I'm sad and angry, which I've felt off and on this last year, but now that I'm almost done with treatment (again), it feels different. I would sure appreciate any thoughts from all my sisters out there.