Feeling guilty

[Sherryg683]

I am finding it hard for me to deal with the guilt I feel. It's not so much survivor guilt. It's more of the guilt that I am not doing enough. I feel that God has blessed me with 2 years of good health and what have I done with it to make a difference....absolutely nothing. I have done a little volunteer work, but not enough. I give to the homeless guy on the side of the road...but feel I should be doing more. I feel like I should be stepping out, speaking out and making a difference. I go to church and hear how we should be serving and helping our fellow man and I walk out feeling guilty. I fear that when I get to heaven, if God asks me "what did you do with the time I gave you", I wouldn't have a good answer. I do have a young child, and my energy level is not nearly as good as it use to be and I try to do all I can...I just still get so tired. I read an article about a lady who had beaten advanced cancer. She said that for quite a while she felt immense pressure to do something extra ordinary with her life and that it took her years to realize that she could just live and be herself. I am hoping I get to that point. Does any of this make sense? sherryg683