Havah!
Okay, Havah! I had extensive liver mets in Aug of '98. I was given Taxotere and Herceptin and I was NED by the end of May '99. I remain STABLE, and still taking H ev 3 wks! So, please don't give yourself a sentence! I did suspect I was dying, feeling the effects of T on my body, bringing me to my knees, but I reminded myself of what the T (& H) must be doing to my cancer cells! I picked myself up off the floor and fought w/everything I had, my mind (and thoughts), my body (weakened but under command to a good degree) and my Spirit (which is capable of bringing miraculous results to you!). I prayed, I meditated, I took supplements, I rescripted my inner dialogue and mental imagery. I decided to see myself far into the future in vivid detail. I lived AS IF what I wanted was already a reality! And, consequently, I found myself living with a kind of joy and peace, KNOWING with all my heart and Soul that I was calling my desired goal to me!
You may feel that you are deep in the woods, but you are not lost! Don't even think that! YOUR BODY HEARS EVERYTHING YOU THINK, OR WHISPER, AND TAKES IT PERSONALLY. Your body does as your mind commands. Don't forget that! It's a mighty tool you have at your disposal! Fight, Havah, fight! And yes, I, like Maryann, am yelling... With love...
Andi
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Andi BB
'95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive...
'98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!)
+ good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either...
Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...
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