Meeting with the onc

[Faith in Him]

Just sharing my thoughts with you wonderful ladies as I know I could share this with my family and they would not have a clue as to what I was talking about. Or they would think I was not being grateful.

I went for my herceptin infusion today but I had to meet with the onc first. The meeting went well. I learn my muga was good, I had a physical exam - it was good, I have great energy and and the onc is very pleased with how things are going.

So I then go to get the infusion and the nurse leaves the docs notes in my room and walks out. So I have to read them, it is just to tempting. His notes read: no masses, no areas of concern and is in a clincial remission. Well, you'd think I would be excited about those last two words: clincial remission but I wasn't. I wished it said clincially cured, forever.

The thought of being in remission and not cured is bothering me. I guess, I just needed to vent a little. Tomorrow, I hope I feel differently.