Am I Obsessed?
It has been a year since I was diagnosed with BC. Not one single day has gone by where I haven't thought about cancer, talked about cancer, read about cancer and/or researched the net about cancer. I have had a positive attitude all along this journey, but I have been depressed for the past 4-5 weeks. Having a gall bladder attack and surgery a few weeks ago didn't help. My persistent chest and armpit pain, fatigue, and fevers remind me of my BC every day. For the past two months, most evenings I get a tickle deep in my throat and cough, the more I cough, it seems the more I need to cough more. The split second I wake up, my pectoralis muscles are so tight making my chest so painful I can't move. Somedays the pain is so bad I have to yell for my husband to help me out of bed or off the couch. I spend most of my days and nights sleeping, watching TV, reading, and on the laptop. I have been a couch potato for a year now and only go out for doctor visits, treatments and testing. I really don't have any desire or energy to do anything or go anywhere. It's been a few weeks since I found this site, but I am driven to check it out every day. I think I'm obsessed with my diagnosis. Am I obsessed? Or what???
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Aug06...Dx Age 50, IDC Left Breast, 6+/16 lymph nodes, Stg 3, ER+/PR+/HER2+
Sep06-Jan07...Mediport. Chemo: AC x 4, T x 4
Dec06-Nov07...Herceptin
Feb12,2007...Surg MRM Left & SM Right, reconstruct w/expanders
Mar07-Jun07...Saline Exp
Jun07...Start Tamoxifen
Jun07-Aug07...Rad x 25
Jun07-Oct07...Persistent fevers-unknown origin
Jun07-Nov07...PT for Severe PMPS & Capsular Contracture
Nov07...Surg Capsulectomy, Gel Implants, PMPS pain gone instantly.
Feb08...NED 1st CANCERVERSARY!!!!!
Feb08...2 months post surgery Caps Cont again :(
Mar08...Stop Tamoxifen. Start Arimidex.
Apr08...Sudden high fever, Hosp ICU 10 days, staph infect, emerg surg, implants removed. Outpt IVantibiotics Daily x 6 weeks
Feb11...NED 5th CANCERVERSARY!!!!!
Feb12...NED 6th CANCERVERSARY!!!!!
Aug12...Spotting. Surg=D&C
Sep12...STAGE IV = RARE BC METS TO UTERUS ILC ER+/PR+/HER2-Negative) (Different BC than originally diagnosed = IDC ER+/PR+/HER2+).
Sep12...Stop Arimidex. Start Afinitor & Aromasin.
Jan13...MRI = no progression no reduction
Apr13...Progression. Stop Afinitor & Aromasin.
Apr13...Start Chemo: Taxol & Carboplatin.
Nov13...Scans & Pelvic 95+% Reduction. Nueropathy>Stop chemo start Fareston.
Jan14...PET scan = no progression stable.
May14...Pelvic > Bleeding & cramps. TMs up.
May14...PET scan = uterine progression :(
May14...Stop Fareston. Start Chemo: Xeloda.
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