First day of school...scared again!! S.O.S.!

[Ceesun]

Dear Friends, Tomorrow I go back to work after a very pleasant summer vacation...last year when I went back at this time I was first diagnosed with lung mets. I wondered if I would make it through the year with treatment again, fear of bad test results, and all the rest of the bc agony. But, with God's help, and all of the other miracle workers I have met on this journey, I completed the school year pretty well. But, here I go once again and I am bothered by the fear of more mets, and all the other worries about getting through the year once again...Life is so uncertain for us and I know this ties in with that fear of making future plans. It's too late to turn back, but how will I cope with these lingering feelings of fear and doubt. thanks in advance for any replies you may give. Your sister, Ceesun aka Cathy P.S. This summer was a very pleasant one for me...my clinical trial nurses said they have never seen me so relaxed-I am thankful for that.