so much has happened

[Joy]

Wow you guys, I can't believe what has gone on in the past few days that I was gone. StephN, I'm so sorry about your family struggles and I am thinking of you all in the very best and warm ways. Sandy H. I had no idea that the tykerb was already a problem-what happened? Are you on xeloda still. How about the Doxil-I hope that does a number on those dumb mets!!! Esther-what the heck? I hope that new spot gets put in its place pronto and that the mercedes is driven into the ground, BY YOU! If anyone can... Rendi, I hope things get decided and go smoothly and successfully. And to everyone else out there I'm thinking of you and hoping only good things are happening.

I was on a vacation for 5 days and I didn't think about cancer once,not once. I have never done that- EVER in the past 7 years on vacation or otherwise. I didn't have random aches and pains that worried me either-nothin'. I can't tell you how liberating that was. I felt like a happy, normal (well-you know) person. When I walked through my front door Sunday night tears fell out of my eyes because cancer was the first thing I thought of and it hurt. How can I get to that place of just not thinking about it at all on a daily basis? It is obvious that I have the power, cause I did it, but how do I do it at home? Anyway, I'm having a hard time adjusting to reality and am concerned for so many of you in your realities.

Love to all of you!