hi

[Joy]

Just getting the pre-result jitters for tomorrow's visit. Not sure why, I mean, how MANY times have I faced results? I don't know if it is psychosomatic (psycho anyway) that I'm feeling a little more tired from chemo. My nails are crumbling off and it is kinda owie. I feel like i've developed food intolerances-is that nuts?

I keep beating myself up for not being as energetic and then I try to remember that in the last year and a half I've been in chemo for 14 months total with only a 6 week break.

I know I have options. You just can't help but think when is the body gonna say, "enough!"?

Oh well, my 10 year old informed me-the way they do-that none of her tennis shoes fit and they have begun morning jogging in preparation for the Pentathalon. So we are off to shoe shop (change of seasons always seems to cost money doesn't it). This is all after my 8 year old came home and just had to make "fairy cakes" from scratch for the magic fairy bush at the park where her class likes to picnic. So we did (not bad I must say-lucky fairies). She wrote them a note that began, "To you fairies..." Cracked me up.

Oh and GET this. Remember my sister's foster dog who had the puppies-who are gargantuan and go on to one -on- one foster homes sunday before spay and neuter, recovery and back to the humane society for adoption (we are taking bets on how long they'll last there-5 seconds, maybe)----Well, on Monday someone brought in a 2 week old puppy whose mama had died and this person didn't know how to care for it. The HS called my sis knowing that she had a nursing mama dog and now my sister's foster dog, Jada, is a foster mom herself! She has been nursing the new one, named Miss Daisy. Jennifer is supplementing with some formula and the little one is feisty and well (if it didn't work they were thinking of euthanizing). We felt like at was a little miracle. Especially since Jada gave birth to 3 girls and 5 boys and lost one of the girls. Now she has that 8th puppy and a girl.

Life can be amazing and all I want is to be around to see it.

thanks for your support, always