Hair is going
Now I know this is all part of the chemo experience and I have been waiting, expecting and preparing for it since I first found out chemo was in my future. But after pulling a chunk out of my head today I lost it. With the loss of my hair it almost feels like this is really happening to me. I have cancer. You would think with the chemo and missing 1/4 of my breast that that would have given me a pretty good hint. But I was OK with those things, well as OK as you can be. But the hair made me burst into tears. I know when my husband comes home and we sit down to shave it off it will be fine. We will keep our chins up and laugh, but at this moment I am sad. It's not that my hair has ever been the central point of my womenhood. Heck, for work I wake up and put it in a ponytail. I guess I feel that it is one more thing cancer has taken from me. I need to gain control and recapture my life. Sorry for ranting but I hope some of you can share feelings and stories of your baldness with me to help ease my feelings. Thanks, Kriss
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DX IDC AT 42 12/7/06
2.2CM STAGE I GRADE 2
NODE NEG
PARTIAL 12/18/06
HER2+ /ER+(75%) PR+(5%)
4 DD AC CHEMO STARTING 1/10/07
4 DD Taxol Starting 3/5/07
1year weekly Herceptin starting 3/5/07
finished 2/18/08
changed to every 3 weeks 4/23/07
completed 33 radiation treatments 7/6/07
TAH and BSO 9/24/07
start Femarra 10/8/07
Started Neritinib trial 12/14/09
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