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It started last week - still in a funk. :(
Last week when I found out 2 Herceptins left and happy for a day. Then back to My Ex, GF, her two kids and now my son is home for 6 weeks and is staying at the house we raised him in, but not I am resentful. I didn't make my ex sell the house because he is the one that wanted it to begin with, I didn't take 1/2 his retirement, and I didn't ask for child support. The reason is because he does love our son as much as me, and I knew he would take care of him fincially and he has.
However, by doing that I never had control of anything and he controled everything. 5 years later they are one big happy family that I helped build on a bedroom, a big family room, and a two car garage and the new 40 year old GF with Fake Breasts/irony has went in and is re-doing it all and down the road they will be getting married (after she is divorced from 2nd husband).
I never had to deal with this before but I feel like they are the family, and I don't exist. It has gotten me really down, and I don't know how to get over it.
Geez, I am beating cancer, I should appreciate the small things right???
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IDC breast cancer
7/2012 diagnosed with multiple solid lesions
7/20/12 biopsy done. ER+ 30 PR -, HER+++,k167 80% Grade 2
9/2012 biopsy on lymph node - showed malignant
9/2012 Pre-adjunctive TCH chemo.
12/6/12 MRI after Pre-adj.
Results: Modest Decrease in size of left breast malignancy As well as the associated satellite lesions and auxiliary Adenopathy compared to prior study. Doctors hoped for better but good response it didn't grow.
12/18/2012 left masectomy with axillary nodes
Size 3.2 CM, Nottingham score 9/9
Grade 3, no evidence of in situ carcinoma
Areas of angiolymphatic are identified
Carcinoma is 0.5 cm from inked deep
Margin of excision
Attached axillary lymph nodes: metastatic
Carcinoma in 6 of 8 nodes.
Size of largest node 1.5 cm
Extracapsular
ER + 73%, PR+2%, HER2+
2/27/13 6 weeks of IMRT radiation finished
2/2013 Started on Tamoxifan 5 years.
8/2013 will take last Herceptin, 17 treatments total every 3 weeks.
BRCA1 & BRAC2 - Negative
August 28, 2013 DIEP flap on the left breast.
February 2014 Nip & Tuck
March 14, 2014 nipple reconstruction and removed port.
August 14, 2014 lump in lymph nodes under arm and above clavicle. Stage IV
August 28, 2014 herceptin And projeta starting and port put back in.
3/18/15 stopped arimidex.
3/18/15 progression....Tdm1
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