Thank you, Ron & ladies, for replying. I always feel better when somebody responds to my board messages!
Here is a tid-bit about myself: I grew up with a grandmother who had battled bipolar (maniac) depression all my life. It was a mixed blessing when she finally had left us to heaven, only because she was always sad and nothing (ie, meds, our family support) could ever seem to help her. It was as if she was antipicating her death for years, when she did not even receive any 'death sentence'!
She was like a 2nd mother to me, as my own mom was a working mother, and so grandma was an inspiration to me. Bless her sweet heart.
I'm working so hard not to carry such a pitiful attitude that she had experienced. I thought it was sad that she was sort of wasting her life away, like a sitting duck.
Perhaps that is why I feel the impatience to get rid of my depression and just move on. I must admit, I've been a bit restless, like somebody with ADD! :-) Unfortunately, you cannot change the way your mind works overnight. It's a slow process.
One reason of my depression is LACK of friends that I have. Because we are young, everybody is busy being pregnant and raising babies/kids, I'm on the other side, basically fighting for every day of my remaining life! I guess we're going through different phases concurretly.
All the more reason I would love to hear from you! I've post my email address above.
Sisters, we all can do it together! Hugs
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