Thank You All!

At night when I can't sleep, or write, or even think (I can always eat), I log on to this site and read everyone's posts. I was trying to explain to my husband this evening what this site means to me but it was difficult, other than telling him how much I admire each of you. So many of you have had a harder time than I: younger, still raising children, diagnosed at a higher stage, and yet, even when you're low, confused, or angry (how can we not be angry), you're always positive about life and getting on with it. So I'm taking a lesson from all of you. We've decided to buy a house in the countryside, plant an herb garden, get some more cats (we have two) and maybe a dog, and get on with life. I will stop worrying all day every day about cancer and will get on with living--about time too.

So thank you all. It's nice to have so many new friends.

[StephN]

Dear Grace -
What you have described is just what we all go through at some point with this disease. Only you put it in such plain yet eloquent language. Having a site like this is MORE than just knowing you are not alone - we all know that when we go to our cancer centers. There is flesh and blood here, and smart people who care for others.

It takes many months to begin to look forward and get beyond all the appointments and the steep learning curve that comes with a diagnosis of any major disease. I recall thinking that I needed to be so practical and only buy new clothes with buttons or zippers in front to wear to treatment. And other restrictive nonsense.

Treatment saps our energy level and that in itself makes it hard to do anything but what we HAVE to. Takes the fun right out of life! I felt like I had a flat tire and was limping along handicapped.

Spring is a new season and a good time to have thoughts of renewing your life. Start a new chapter. Let go of some of the fear that we harbor over our future. Get your hands in the dirt - I planted some bright primroses yesterday and it felt very good.

[suzan w]

Thank you for your post...I know EXACTLY what you mean!!!

[MGordon]

But I have a suggestion too. Have hubby logon and experience the site for himself - he too may come to love and respect eveyone here - and Lord knows he has caregiver insights he could share!

Love and Light
Mel

[rinaina]

I have encouraged my husband from the beginning to become an active part of this forum but he never seems to make the time for it. Guess it isn't a priority and that is a shame because I think he could connect better with what we go through if he would take the time and read through some of the posts. For him, there is work, sports, (both playing and watching), golf, (his addiction), and then me. I am being a bit hard on him as he was by my side from the moment I was diagnosed, through every chemo session and doctor appointment until tax season began, (he is a CPA). I have noticed that he is a bit disconnected from the entire cancer thing now, as he hasn't been able to be involved much at all since early December. I know he cares though. Just wish he would reconnect by reading up on this site.

[Joy]

I've been noticing in you posts. Thank you for such a thoughtful and inspiring message.