Stage 4 Staying Upbeat...how to?

Ceesun · 02-04-2007, 04:31 PM

Gals, How do you stay so upbeat when at this stage? I tell myself I only go round once in life so I should not waste my precious time with worry. But at times, I do. I have received good news that my 2 lung nodules are no longer visible ( no longer appreciated on this study--ct scan) but I worry so about the bones, liver, the brain. It is so hard that I worry about more bad stuff happening. Lately I am afraid to make long term plans-how do you get over that and go on? Sincerely, Ceesun

Mary Jo · 02-04-2007, 05:01 PM

Hi Ceesun,

I cannot relate with the stage 4 as I was stage 2 BUT I can relate to the worry. It is something that becomes easier with time as I think we learn to live with the uncertainties of our life. I always say to non-cancer people when they start to show pity to me (and I HATE that) that the only difference between them and me is that I was given a diagnosis that forced me to look at my mortality. NONE of us no from day to day what will be. No one! Only God knows the number of our days. For whatever reason we have this disease. We can choose to worry our time away or grow and blossom where we are planted. I know that sounds sappy.............and I don't mean for it too..............but choosing to grow, blossom and live life to the fullest is the only way I can live. When those worry days come a long (and trust me they do) I pray - try to let it go and live my life as if it were my last. Because truthfully, NONE of us know if it may just be that. Even non cancer people don't know.

Loving you in Jesus and praying for Peace for you,

Mary Jo
"All the days ordained for me were written in your book BEFORE
even one came to pass." Psalm 139:16 (that verse gives me hope as I believe I am right where I am suppose to be and what will unfold will unfold with or without anything from me.

Sheila · 02-04-2007, 05:20 PM

Ceesun

As a stage IV person, I take each day, live my life to the fullest. Whenever I get down or start having worry consume me, I look around at all I have been blessed with...so many people do not have the blessings in their life I have had...family, children, grandchildren, blue skys, green grass....my list could last forever. I try not to think of the what ifs, and live in the moment...plan for the future and try to remain positive....it is my hope, my destiny.

Colleen007 · 02-04-2007, 07:08 PM

Hi Ceesun,

Since I was initially diagnosed at Stage IV, I don't know breast cancer any other way. But, I have learned to just take each day as it comes and to really appreciate all of the people and things that are most important in my life. I have a husband and 2 young children who need me, so I am doing everything in my power (and my medical team's) to fight this disease with everything I've got. Yes, that involves chemo and some of the feeling down time that comes along with it, but I know that there are plenty of days in each cycle where I feel pretty darn good, and really try to do things that make me happiest on those days. I get anxious whenever I have scans (and "what if" something new shows up), but I try to limit that worry to scan time...otherwise, I'd be a wreck. I know that I am not going to die tomorrow, so we have made some plans for later in the year...gives us something to look forward to...and once I make it to that point, we'll plan the next fun memory making opportunity.

Brenda_D · 02-04-2007, 07:40 PM

Honestly, I had to get away from the BC forums for awhile because they are a constant reminder of my situation.

I love the forums because they are a source of info and support and at the same time I had to get away.
I hope that makes sense.

For a few days I got to go back to "before BC" and think about gardening, and flowers, and such.
Getting back to what I loved before (and still do) is a way for me to cope and feel like I still have a life.

Vanessa · 02-04-2007, 08:52 PM

I sometimes find it hard to be upbeat also. I find that being around people is really helpful whether it is at work or with family or friends. At night is when I have the worst time. I also try to watch funny movies or tv shows and read funny books.

chrisy · 02-04-2007, 07:37 PM

Dear Ceesun,
Great question! When you find the answer, let ME know! I've always been basically an upbeat person, but this is definitely a challenge.

I do as you do - try to just live my life one day at a time. When I got the Stage IV diag, I decided I was going to continue to live my life NOW, because tommorrow is so uncertain. And boy, would I feel stupid if I lived another 40 years but "missed" it by spending all my time worrying and being depressed. I guess the same thing would apply to making long-term plans, although I admit I'm still working on that myself!

So I just try to live a "normal" life, one that is worth living, and have been lucky enough to be able to do this.
When I start having a pity party and ask "why me?" I always somehow end up laughing at myself, because as unfair as living with cancer is, it's no more unfair than me having a great job, wonderful hubby, and all the other things that make me feel as if I've led a charmed life.

Of course I do worry and get down from time to time (my twisted thinking on a "good" CT scan sometimes includes thoughts like "now I'm one more scan closer to a 'bad' one")! We'd be crazy not to worry EVER! When this happens, I try to focus on things that make me hopeful, for instance long time survivors, new areas of research, etc - one reason I hang out on this site. This helps me maintain a healthy sense of denial! LOL. Seriously, there truly is so much hope out there - even my rockstar oncologist says bc is becoming more of a chronic disease that can be managed for maybe a long time. I mentally add, "maybe long enough for them to figure out how to stop it for good".

It is definitely not easy - we must be very special to be given this much to carry!

Hang in there!