Am I crazy?

[bobbiw]

Probably would be considered so by some but....
Anyway at one of my recent infusion appointments I ran into a gal who used to live by us. She had been diagnosed some years back and has recurred-been told that she has 1 1/2 years to live but is marching on with treatment. After she left I had to hold back tears, not sure why dont quite understand the emotions I am having but...
Ran into her again today at the grocery store (it's a small town). This lady is a fighter and she is going to fight with all of her might and for that I applaude her. Left her, got into the car and actually broke into tears. What is it ladies about this person, whom I just know as an ex-neighbor and of course a breast cancer survivor now patient. She is fighting and is not giving up hope, has a good attitude so why do I break into tears when I see her or just think about her? She could very well beat this thing I know that...I know that I am not crying because I feel she has already lost the fight, I know that, I just dont know why I am having these emotions.
She really is the first person (that I do know personally) that has recurred, could that be it? Could it be that her situation makes me-in the way back of my head- think of my own mortality should my cancer return?
Maybe I have stuck my head in the sand this past year because my prognosis this far is very good and maybe I am realizing that it can happen to anyone even me or maybe I am over analyzing it.
She has her treatments the same day each week that I have my Herceptin. I have to pull myself up by the bootstraps here and be supportive of her.....
Thank you for letting me vent/talk.
Bobbi