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i scared myself
i have had bad lower back pain and a randomly collapsing right hip for many months now. i just took Motrin and worked out and hoped i built muscles to compensate. finally i went to the doc yesterday because i had a new problem, tingling in my left hand that started going up my arm. she sent me for x-rays today for my spine and hip. as i was laying on the table the tech put a lead shield over my breasts to protect them and i joked, hell those things have seen 7 weeks straight of radiation, i doubt this will hurt them. and as they were "taking pictures" my mind began to wander. no doubt influenced by the fact that my 38 yr old niece has spinal mets. but as i sat up, i stupidly asked the tech "would cancer show up on an x-ray?" well, DUH. but now i have made myself anxious as the evening's progressed. yesterday when my hip gave out yet again i fell down on the pavement and skinned my knee so bad (and big) it's still bleeding today under the bandage. so now i've managed to worry myself. i got my breast MRI last month and got an all-clear. and never once did i think about my bones.
IT IS PROBABLY NOTHING.
but this is the only place i can vent without scaring anyone else. i hope it is only the damage AI's and Tamoxifen have wreaked on my bones. and a strain (?!)
ugh.
fingers crossed that my hip and lower back are just me being a klutz and hurting myself.  i just don't remember ever doing so.
valerie
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8/09 - IDC 1.8 cm triple positive, lumpectomy left breast
10/09 began chemo (taxotere & carboplatin) and weekly herceptin.
1/21/10 finished chemo, continued on herceptin every 3 weeks until 10/2010.
2/10 began 7 wks of radiation
6/10 mom dies of primary peritoneal ovarian cancer
8/10 got my last remaining ovary out
10/10 mammogram all clear
3/11 MRI shows 5 'spots' in right breast, largest 1 cm unidentifiable on US
needle biopsy proved the largest to be old inflamed cyst -phew!
7/10 switched to Arimidex
8/9 switched to Femara - allergic to arimidex
Femara made me lose hair quickly so switched to Aromasin
Aromasin made my hair fall out too and the bone pain was too much.
back on Tamoxifen 1/2013.
blood clot from trains and planes 5/2014 so on coumadin per onco for as long as i am on tamoxifen
tamoxifen was supposed to be up with my 5 yrs in may but my boyfriend was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer so i am staying on tamoxifen indefinitely because i want some ammo against BC, given the stress. lost my husband in only 10 wks in 2007 to stage 4 esophageal cancer.
cancer's screwing with another man i love
2/2016 - 6yrs in remission, off tamoxifen and off coumadin - yay!
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