Long Awaited Update

[Believe51]

Sorry for being so distant lately, much has happened here in Little Rhody the last few weeks.

Septmeber 7, 2007: This was My Mighty Oak's FIRST CANCERVERSARY and I took him for a 'Reflection Get-away'. We spent four days buried in the mountains of New Hampshire in a quaint bed & breakfast with a fireplace and huge jacuzzi. We had a wrap around porch and the entrance way....get this...was lined with Honeysuckles that were taller than me ('course I am only 5' tall!!). It was a get away that was to count our blessings, thus the poem I wrote that I will pull back up in case someone missed it. I never imagined that the walk way would consist of these flowers, they are a strong symbol that remind me of all things good in my life, they take me to a place that is safe and wonderous. From the past to the future these flowers are magic to me & have always been so. Each time I passed by to take a walk or grab a latte I would just stop. I inhaled the magic with my eyes closed until I was dizzy with intoxication....or maybe I was making myself hyperventilate!! (ROTFL)! Whenever I have a dream about dancing with my husband at NED there are always Honeysuckle and Jasmine!! It was like this place was made for us, like it was confirming all of the signs I have recieved recently.

I told him I was not leaving until I seen a moose, my way of saying that I was not leaving anytime soon. Guess what girls?? When we were shopping one day he found a purple moose and purple is my favorite color. I was in tears there in the middle of this store as he told me 'I had to have this moose', part of me was crying because of the way this man has always cared for me. I know this was a time that I should not have been thinking of how cancer has affected our lives. Hubby has always been this kind of man, I have always been spoiled. Now that he is on this journey with cancer I constantly fight with myself about 'Not Thinking' about how I shall go on without him spoiling me (and not in a materialistic way either), just spoiling me with love. The moose is named Eddie and he still smells like the store he came from, what a great day. He fits perfect in my hands and I cuddle with him as a security. My nut of a husband said that I would have something else to remember him by!! I corrected him quickly. Everything I see, everything I do, it all reminds me of him. Whether the sun rising or setting so gorgeously or a cute purple moose!!

He had to rest frequently and nap often but we had the time of our lives. We are trying to keep travel as one of our goals, especially because he feels that his time is limited here. And he IS a positive person, just going on what his body is trying to say. Like we have said here before on the site, all of our time here is limited here.

I came home and was so renergized girls, I was fresh and alive and full of everything I need to continue on this journey. A world of good I say, a world of good!!

ps: something just came up, I will continue tommorow!! Love You All

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