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suzan w · 07-28-2014, 04:36 AM

I still think about cancer every day. In the beginning it was all about fear, anger, grief. Now it is about gratitude (imagine...grateful and cancer in the same thought!!),determination, and knowledge. And a little bit of fear!!! I don't think that the fear ever really goes away. Like other traumatic life events, cancer is always in the back of my mind. There are reminders everywhere. Every morning in the shower, there it is, BOOM!! No breasts! Oh, yeah!!! Cancer! I feel powerful for all that I did, and continue to do to fight the beast...for myself and for all affected.
Yes, I think about cancer every day. It floats through my mind like a cloud, some light and fluffy thoughts that pass by quickly. And every once in a while a dark angry storm brews. Cancer is now on my list of life experiences. Not one that I chose, but there, nonetheless.

07-28-2014, 04:36 AM	#3
suzan w Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: Naples FL Posts: 1,744	Re: Do you ever stop thinking about cancer? I still think about cancer every day. In the beginning it was all about fear, anger, grief. Now it is about gratitude (imagine...grateful and cancer in the same thought!!),determination, and knowledge. And a little bit of fear!!! I don't think that the fear ever really goes away. Like other traumatic life events, cancer is always in the back of my mind. There are reminders everywhere. Every morning in the shower, there it is, BOOM!! No breasts! Oh, yeah!!! Cancer! I feel powerful for all that I did, and continue to do to fight the beast...for myself and for all affected. Yes, I think about cancer every day. It floats through my mind like a cloud, some light and fluffy thoughts that pass by quickly. And every once in a while a dark angry storm brews. Cancer is now on my list of life experiences. Not one that I chose, but there, nonetheless. __________________ Suzan W. age 54 at diagnosis 5/05 suspicious mammogram-left breast 5/05 biopsy-invasive lobular carcinoma with LCIS,8mm tumor,stage 1 grade 2, ER+ PR+ Her2+++ 6/14/05 bilateral mastectomy, node neg. all scans neg. Oncotype DX-high risk 8/05-10/05 4 rounds A/C 10/05 -10/06 1 yr. herceptin arimidex-5 years 2/14/08 started daily self administered injections..FORTEO for severe osteoporosis 7/28/09 BRCA 1 negative BRCA2 POSITIVE 8/17/09 prophylactic salpingo-oophorectomy 10/15/10 last FORTEOinjection RECLAST infusion(ostoeporosis) 6/14/10 5 year cancerversary! 8/2010-18%increase in bone density! no further treatments Oncologist says, "Go do the Happy Dance" I say,"What a long strange trip its been" 'One day at a time' 6-14-2015. 10 YEAR CANCERVERSARY! 7-16 to 9-16. Extensive (and expensive) dental work done to save teeth. Damage from osteoporosis and chemo and long term bisphosphonate use 6-14-16. 11 YEAR CANCERVERSARY!! 7-20-16 Prolia injection for severe osteoporosis 2 days later, massive hive outbreak. This led to an eventual dx of Chronic Ideopathic Urticaria, an auto-immune disease from HELL. 6-14-17 12 YEAR CANCERVERSARY!! still suffering from CIU. 4 hospitilizations in the past year as of today, 10-31-17 in remission from CIU and still, CANCER FREE!!! 6-14-18 13 YEAR CANCERVERSARY!! NED!!