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Andrea Barnett Budin · 09-01-2012, 06:43 PM

YES Marlys! All our pain comes from our struggling.

Once we accept, we can move on. Free. Open to feel and live with joy and serenity. From day one of dx, I have lived AS IF. As if what I wanted was already making it's way to me.

I knew I was exactly where I needed to be, though surely bc was never what I bargained for. And, as it is, I found myself on the most wondrously miraculous pathway that I would never have begun to imagine otherwise. I've met the most incredible people I would never have encountered otherwise. I've learned so much and become so much more...

Nothing is a mistake. Well the docs' prognoses were -- ill-informed. I chose to survive, despite the dismal stats.
To dance with predetermination. To alter my outcome.
And you can quote me on this...

09-01-2012, 06:43 PM	#152
Andrea Barnett Budin Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2005 Location: LAND OF YES! w/home in Boca Raton, Florida Orig from L.I., N.Y. Ever hovering IN THE NOW... Posts: 1,904	Re: ~Daily Inspirational Quotes..... YES Marlys! All our pain comes from our struggling. Once we accept, we can move on. Free. Open to feel and live with joy and serenity. From day one of dx, I have lived AS IF. As if what I wanted was already making it's way to me. I knew I was exactly where I needed to be, though surely bc was never what I bargained for. And, as it is, I found myself on the most wondrously miraculous pathway that I would never have begun to imagine otherwise. I've met the most incredible people I would never have encountered otherwise. I've learned so much and become so much more... Nothing is a mistake. Well the docs' prognoses were -- ill-informed. I chose to survive, despite the dismal stats. To dance with predetermination. To alter my outcome. And you can quote me on this... __________________ Andi BB '95 post-meno dx Invasive LOBULAR w/9cm tumor! YIKES + 2/21 nodes. Clear mammo 10 mnths earlier. Mastec/tram flap reconst/PORT/8 mnths chemo (4Adria/8CMF). Borderline ER/PR. Tamoxifen 2 yrs. Felt BLESSED. I could walk and talk, feed and bathe myself! I KNEW I would survive... '98 -- multiple mets to liver. HER2+ 80%. ER/PR- Raging, highly aggressive tumors spreading fast. New PORT. 9 mnths Taxotere Fought fire w/fire! Pronounced in cautious remission 5/99. Taxotere weekly for 6 wks, 2 wks off -- for 9 mnths. TALK ABOUT GRUELING! (I believe they've altered that protocol since those days -- sure hope so!!) + good old Vit H wkly for 1st 3 yrs, then triple dosage ev 3 wks for 7 yrs more... The "easy" chemo, right?! Not a walk in the park, but not a freight train coming at 'ya either... Added Herceptin Nov '98 (6 wks after FDA fast-tracked it for met bc). Stayed w/Vit H till July '08! Now I AM FREE! Humbly and eternally grateful for this life-saving drug! NED since '99 and planning on keeping it that way. To hell w/poor prognosis and nasty stats! STOPPED VIT H JULY '08...! REMAIN STABLE... Eternally grateful...Yes is a world & in this world of yes live (skillfully curled) all worlds ... (e e cummings) EVERY DAY I BEAT MY PREVIOUS RECORD FOR # OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS I'VE STAYED ALIVE. Smile KNOWING you too can be a miracle. Up to me and God now...