[Lucy]

I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this on top of everything else. You've gotten some good advice from others and I wholeheartedly agree that you should do things that make you happy and bring you joy. Given what you're going through, you need to focus all your energy on you and do your best to put all the negative things out of your mind. I know, easier said than done. Don't forget that God is always with you and He will get you through this. (sending cyber hugs)