[Believe51]

Well said Brenda, I needed to hear your feelings today and I cannot tell you how that makes me feel. I have been too emotionally and physically exhausted to contribute the opening of many doors lately but happy to join you now. That being said I wanted to let you know I appreciate your 'manifesto' and how perfectly, once again, you have placed your feelings out to us.

The way I treat this entire journey is a' la carte, especially in regards to threads. My appetite is not the same each day so I have to make choices of what can go on my plate, what I can digest and go on not feeling bloated with. I join each meal and take what I can eat, I push away what I cannot or will not eat and I never criticize the chef. His cooking is a gift that he willingly shares with others. Sometimes I cook and I know that not everyone will enjoy the dish or maybe cannot fit that on their plate. I cook knowing that not everyone will enjoy my menu. But I cook to share my kitchen and I do it with the intentions that not everyone will come. It is with the comfort of those that do come and those that may join secretly, that I can provide them food and shelter. My guests do not always have to compliment me on the dish I supplied, we all have different tastes. Just joining me and sitting besides me through this all is enough. Just knowing that I may sometime cook something that you could take home is my goal. But I chose to cook and share recipes, I cook with consideration to everyones dietary restrictions. And I also eat within mine.

So Dear Sister, I thank myself today for opening this door this July 4th. I enjoyed my visit and the importance I found in your words. Thanks for lunch. Have I told you how much you mean to me lately???>>Believe51