[chrisy]

Michelle,

My heart breaks to read what you are experiencing. My opinion??? This totally sucks (how's that for an unbiased, unhelpful opinion!). Cancer is so ugly - not enough to wreak havoc on our bodies - it can upend everything in our lives. And challenge even the strongest of relationships.

You have every reason to be angry, sad, scared,whatever. VENT ON! Nothing about this is fair. You of all people deserve to be cherished, supported, pampered! You are such a beautiful person and such an inspiration to us all. I'm sorry your hubby isn't getting with the program. Another unbiased opinion: you need to continue to focus on what gives you strength. Who knows, you may outlive them all!

Unbidden, this thought came and whacked me upside the head, from nowhere (?). I haven't read this book, haven't thought about it in months. It's called "the power of a praying wife". A very dear friend of mine has been struggling in her marriage for several years. This book changed her. No, her husband hasn't changed - but she has. Her entire perspective changed about her relationship and interaction with him. It's now much easier for her to work to address the underlying problems.
As I said, I have not read this book, so you can consider this a very questionable recommendation! But since it popped into my mind, I had to honor that!

Anyway, praying wife or not, my prayers are with you.
Much love,
Chris in Scotts Valley