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Believe51 · 03-19-2011, 06:55 AM

I dedicate my 3,000th post to a legend, my Mighty Oak. I still cannot believe that he has passed. I am having a hard time, actually a harder time as the moments pass on without him. Each day is a challenge and a great feat at the end of the each night. A candle burns bright as I tribute my day to the memories that flourish inside.

I have remarried to a wonderful man that he would be so proud of and although love lives in my heart, a part of it shall always be his. I will never get over losing him. There is a piece of me that hurts so bad at times I think I am dead. He is a man I knew from High School and a person who allows me to grow, to speak of Ed, to mourn each day. His wish for the holidays was to raise money in the Mighty Oak's honor, how blessed am I to be able to love such a man?

I am making giant strides for male breast cancer. Right now I am voluntering at the number one breast cancer resource foundation in New England. There is a position that is being devised for me just for male breast cancer and I will soon be there full time. I will be going to Washington DC as a male breast cancer guest speaker in October. I am studying clinical trials, the brain, Her2, Inflammatory and stage IV breast cancer.

How can one be so happy and so sad at the same time? I do not know. I know I used to miss my life but realized that it is still my life it has just changed. I move on the best I can but each day is full of thoughts of him.

I guess I needed to come here because these feelings are those only all of you could understand. I try to come here to support but I do not feel like I can support you like I should when I feel like this. I follow you all you know, I may not post but I do follow your journeys. I send positive energy and still say my prayers for you all. Please know that I am still here and anyone can contact me at anytime. My heart lives here on Her2support.

On a lighter note, I have a Husky pup, he will turn a year old in April. ENZO (means Ruler of the House in Italian) was the first animal I did not rescue. A handful he is, but the best little creature I know. My cats have both passed but I do have plans on saving another...or two...lol.

Forever in my Heart>>>Believe51

Love to you, Marie

03-19-2011, 06:55 AM	#1
Believe51 Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: RHODE ISLAND (Ed getting me a latte on 2nd Cancerversary Cruise 2008) 'BELIEVE': To accept as true or real, To have faith in, To presume ALWAYS BELIEVE Posts: 2,999	~Today is the Anniversary of the Day I Met My Mighty Oak~ I dedicate my 3,000th post to a legend, my Mighty Oak. I still cannot believe that he has passed. I am having a hard time, actually a harder time as the moments pass on without him. Each day is a challenge and a great feat at the end of the each night. A candle burns bright as I tribute my day to the memories that flourish inside. I have remarried to a wonderful man that he would be so proud of and although love lives in my heart, a part of it shall always be his. I will never get over losing him. There is a piece of me that hurts so bad at times I think I am dead. He is a man I knew from High School and a person who allows me to grow, to speak of Ed, to mourn each day. His wish for the holidays was to raise money in the Mighty Oak's honor, how blessed am I to be able to love such a man? I am making giant strides for male breast cancer. Right now I am voluntering at the number one breast cancer resource foundation in New England. There is a position that is being devised for me just for male breast cancer and I will soon be there full time. I will be going to Washington DC as a male breast cancer guest speaker in October. I am studying clinical trials, the brain, Her2, Inflammatory and stage IV breast cancer. How can one be so happy and so sad at the same time? I do not know. I know I used to miss my life but realized that it is still my life it has just changed. I move on the best I can but each day is full of thoughts of him. I guess I needed to come here because these feelings are those only all of you could understand. I try to come here to support but I do not feel like I can support you like I should when I feel like this. I follow you all you know, I may not post but I do follow your journeys. I send positive energy and still say my prayers for you all. Please know that I am still here and anyone can contact me at anytime. My heart lives here on Her2support. On a lighter note, I have a Husky pup, he will turn a year old in April. ENZO (means Ruler of the House in Italian) was the first animal I did not rescue. A handful he is, but the best little creature I know. My cats have both passed but I do have plans on saving another...or two...lol. Forever in my Heart>>>Believe51 Love to you, Marie __________________ 9/7/06Husband 50yrs=StageIV IBC/HER2+,BoneMets10/06TaxotereX10,'H'1X wk,Zometa,Tamoxifen4/12/07Last Tax5/18/07Pet=Rapid Cell Activity,No Organ Mets,Lytic Lesions,Degeneration,Some Bone Repair5/07ChemoFail6/01/07Pleural Thoracentisis=Effusions,NoMalignantCells6/19/07+7/2/07DFCI 6/25/07BrainMRI=BrainMets,Many<9mm7/10/07WBR/PelvisRad37.5Gx15&Nutritionist8/19/07T/X9/20/07BrainMRI=2<2mm10/6/07Pet=BoneProgression 10/24/07ChemoFail11/9/07A/Cx10,EndTam12/7/07Faslodex12/10/07Muga7512/13/07BlasticLesions1/7/08BrainMRI=Clear4/1/08Pet=BoneImprovement, NoProgression,Stable4/7/08BrainPerfect5/16/08Last A/C8/26/08BrainMets=10(<9mm)9/10/08Gamma10/30/08Met=5mm12/19/08Gamma5mets5 12/22/08SpinalMets1/14/09SpinalRads2/17/09BrainMRI=NoNewMets4/20/09BoneScan5/14/09Ixempra6/1/09BrainMRI=NumerousMets6/24/09DFCIw/DrBurstein6/26/09Continue Ixempra/Faslodex/Zometa~TM now lower7/17/09Stop Ixempra By Choice9/21/09HOSPICE10/16/09Earned His Deserved Wings And Halo=37 Month Fight w/Stage 4 IBC, Her2+++,My Hero!!