[sarah]

dear Rhonda,
Terrible about the women who can't get this important drug. Can we do anything to help motivate those countries to do more or the drug companies to do more? I think it has a lot to do with price. Remember England changed its policy with pressure about it. Of course England's a richer country but still.....

dear unregistered - I feel funny talking to a nameless person but....
Sheila's right about attitude and Al's right - it's not your fault, it's probably genetic but certainly noting you did, caused it and God isn't punishing you.
I would strongly advise reading books, watching movies, getting out of yourself. TV oftens seems to have a negative effect perhaps because of news and the unrealistic aspects of it. Go to yoga classes - they're very good physically and mentally - one of my favorite feel good things to do and if concentration is a problem for you, which I suspect it is, then this should help. Then there's always trancendental meditation which teaches concentration and stops you from focuses so much on yourself. Also getting outside, walking and maybe getting involved in charity work. There's nothing like helping others to make you feel better about yourself.
You can help yourself and feel better but only if you start to do something about it. Also as silly as this sounds practice smiling. the very act of smiling does something chemically I don't understand but helps make you happier!!! So start smiling. You also sound like you need some good hugs. oh did I mention animals!!!! nothing like an animal to perk you up!
good luck in your fight
sarah