[Chelee]

Thanks to all of you as I am now much more relieved. Its just ridiculous my oncologists...the BOTH of them I have had....can't tell me anything & they CHOOSE to keep everything to themselves. It just makes me worry more in the LONG run when these things come out in the wash.

Ester, You mentioned your liver mets and your concern about your liver shutting down. That's what I was doing...except I see now I was ahead of myself...I thought maybe they permanetly damaged my liver. I see now from all the posts that is not the case. I was more concerned hearing about my liver enzymes were high because I HAD been telling my infusion nurse for WEEKS that it HURTS really bad where my liver is!

Becky, I did not know the taxanes were harder on the liver. Boy I learn SO MUCH more here then I could even come close to down at the cancer center. Becky, you mentioned that I should start asking for all the copies of these things. Funny you should mention that.

It was JUST today...I was thinking about HOW I have been handled by the oncologist since the day I was introduced to them. Just the fact of letting me LAND in the hospital when he KNEW my wbc for three weeks was low. I knew NOTHING about Neulasta...he DID..and CHOOSE not to give it to me. I almost DIED in the hospital thanks to him. I thought about alot of things today. I am DONE...ITS OVER. I am not going to be treated this way anymore.

So what I did JUST this morning when I got up is call the Radiologist Dept. to see if I could get a copy of my combo PET/CT scan that I have been asking BOTH my oncologist for since the day they received it in Feb. They WON'T let me see it! HA...I fooled them...the Radiologist Dept said what doctor wants to see it? I said, "I would like a copy for myself". She nicely said...when would you like to pick it up? (So easy!)

Then I typed out my own medical letters for two of my doctors requesting all my files, scans, results of all tests, x-rays, all lab work and you name it. I refuse to be ignored anymore...this is my life we are taking about.

I have to have lab work THIS Monday...then see my oncologist BEFORE my herceptin infusion. Wait till she sees me walk in her office with that PET/CT scan...she is going to freak out. Its a long story..but believe me...her and my first oncologist have done everyhing in their power to NOT let me see it for whatever reason...which does worry be a bit? But I NEED the truth about everything rather they like it or not.

Becky, its amazing how you and alot of other women have all their lab work and results of tests. All I every get, and I HAVE to push for it EACH week..and still do...is the sheet from my weekly CBC. Which doesn't have much on it as you know. Just the RBC, WBC, Hemagolbin, hemocrit, lymph, etc. I asked her the other day WHERE are ALL my results from ALL the scans and tests I had while I was layed up in the hospital are? She played dumb and said, "Didn't you get any of those"? I said NO. She gave me 3 sheets of paper. I should of had a good sized folder just from the 10 days in the hosptial. They work hard at keeping things away from me. But they have NO idea whats coming as of Monday. I am getting ALL MY RECORDS and then some.

I never get anything on my liver enzymes or CA 27-29. I don't even think she does that CA 27-29? If so...I have never seen mine.


>You should be able to get the information you want on yourself. Just be >very direct with your onc on what you want and expect. If you explain >your needs clearly, then you should get what you want and if you don't, >then you can really throw a fit<

Thats where I am NOW Becky. My 1st oncologist, & this new one understood without a shadow of a doubt what me & my husband expected. We said we want ALL my information. We disscused it several times in great lenght. So now I have given her more then a chance. First I thought she was just busy...but NO...she just has no intentions of letting us see any of my paper work IF she can help it. So now...I am going to make some noise. I am tired of being nice down there and getting stepped on. I am fighting for my life...I don't get 10 chances at this. Glad she thinks its a joke.
I have had such a rough time with all this since it started. None of this is easy for ANY of us women. But when you lose trust...and they hide and keep things from you...doesn't make this journey any easier.
Thanks for your on-going support Becky. This week I really have been an emotional wreck. Thanks for your kind words at the end of your post...I needed to hear that tonight. I feel so alone till I come here. My one safe place where I can trust everyone....people that truly understand. I am a very sensitive person I guess you could say. And those few kind words of yours brought tears to my eyes.

God Bless you...thank you so much for your help, support and just being there. All of you are such awesome women...I don't know what I would do without this board...and I am so serious.

Sorry again for the long post. I promised to quit doing it...and I did it again. Ugh.

I almost forgot...because I started venting. Orignally this was about my liver enymes being at 147 back in May. They took blood from me yesterday to see if it went DOWN...and my infusion nurse said it was better now. Its at 70. So it must not be permant like I was starting to think...its dropping so far...so that is good. But you all say thats normal...so I can SLEEP easier tonight. I will have another CBC Monday before my chemo (herceptin). I will make sure I get results of NOT just cbc...but all blood work from now on.

Chelee

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Stage IIIA, Her2/Neu 3+++, Er & Pr positive, 5 out of 16 positive nodes, Richardson scale 9 of 9.

DX on Dec. 20th
Radical Mastectomy 1-3-06
Chemo started in Feb.

Herceptin, Taxotere, & Carbpotin